My Name

My name is Holden, a name uncommon
A name hiding in rows of coffee mugs and tags in shops
But it remains not a name unfamiliar
Of an angsty character within popular novels
A name I regret, a desire to unimagine
A legacy of false hopes and missed opportunities
A name, no matter how defined, undesired
You'll feel like an outcast, such feelings will be confirmed
A name without a heart intact or unbroken
One changes your life for the better then leaves you to
Rot, consciousness feeling undone
Detached from your mind, but it is still a hollow, hollow
Shell, pounding on my chest, unsure
Whether or not I have any organs or bones inside me
All of my future remains undreamed
Whether it be sleepless nights or dreamless twelve hour resting
But it seems the waking world is me unawake
And sometimes I feel like I just need to wake myself up
And remove this life of unrest

If I Could Rent My School...

If I could rent my school for the weekend, it should cost about $12,000. My school is a very large college campus with great architecture, unlike other dank high schools. There are plenty of places to sleep, so throwing a huge slumber party would be a really great idea. There's also a ton of computers, so we could all play computer games together on the LAN network. It would probably be the biggest LAN party in history.

My Most Important Rule

My most important rule that I believe people should follow is to not let anything take over your present. Don't let things that happened in the past take your mind off the present, don't let an assumed future take over, and especially don't let fiction take over. If you leave your mind to wander in any direction instead of focusing on the now, you could completely ruin your life experience. If you keep your mind in the now, you can live your life to the fullest without distraction. If you're going to let your mind wander anywhere, let it wander slightly forward so you can think of an action and imagine the consequences. You don't want to do anything too drastic. If you do keep your mind on the present and not let it wander anywhere though, you can prevent yourself from imagining unlikely consequences that could make you not want to act. So many opportunities have been missed because I would always imagine the worst when my mind would wander. Don't miss out on results that could change your life for the better, don't let your mind wander too far astray.